I can't believe it, but I haven't cried today, Mom! I am seriously dreading the day that all the emotions well back up because I know they will, but today I feel good. I don't feel good that you're still gone, but I feel like I'm functioning and actually feeling happy about other things in my life.
Corbin is such a good baby and I know you would be shaking your head at me telling me how lucky I was. He's just so sweet and content. Sometimes when I look in his eyes, I swear I see you. You would be so impressed at how well Cadence has adjusted to a little brother. She just loves him to pieces and hasn't even questioned why he wasn't a sister.
Julie called me the other night and wanted to know if I was going to Thanksgiving this year at your side of the family. I'm not going, but not just to yours. We've decided to stay home this year for Thanksgiving, except for going to yours and Dad's house. For one, Thanksgiving makes me think of you and Corbin is just too little to be traveling all over for people to pass him around like a sack of potatoes. I don't want Julie to think that I'm just never coming to the Lohrstorfer functions again because I have every intention of coming to Christmas. I just think this holiday is too close to my heart and too soon since you've been gone.
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